I thought of just your face

"Into The Ocean"

I'm just a normal boy
That sank when I fell overboard
My ship would leave the country
But I'd rather swim ashore

Without a life vest I'd be stuck again
Wish I was much more masculine
Maybe then I could learn to swim
Like 'fourteen miles away'

Now floating up and down
I spin, colliding into sound
Like whales beneath me diving down
I'm sinking to the bottom of my
Everything that freaks me out
The lighthouse beam has just run out
I'm cold as cold as cold can be
be

I want to swim away but don't know how
Sometimes it feels just like I'm falling in the ocean
Let the waves up take me down
Let the hurricane set in motion... yeah
Let the rain of what I feel right now...come down
Let the rain come down

Where is the coastguard
I keep looking each direction
For a spotlight, give me something
I need something for protection
Maybe flotsam junk will do just fine
the jetsam sunk, I'm left behind
I'm treading for my life believe me
(How can I keep up this breathing)

Not knowing how to think
I scream aloud, begin to sink
My legs and arms are broken down
With envy for the solid ground
I'm reaching for the life within me
How can one man stop his ending
I thought of just your face
Relaxed, and floated into space

I want to swim away but don't know how
Sometimes it feels just like I'm falling in the ocean
Let the waves up take me down
Let the hurricane set in motion... yeah
Let the rain of what I feel right now...come down
Let the rain come down
Let the rain come down

Now waking to the sun
I calculate what I had done
Like jumping from the bow (yeah)
Just to prove that I knew how (yeah)
It's midnight's late reminder of
The loss of her, the one I love
My will to quickly end it all
Set front row in my need to fall

Into the ocean, end it all
Into the ocean, end it all
Into the ocean, end it all
into the ocean...end it all

[Zayra]
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)

I want to swim away but don't know how
Sometimes it feels just like I'm falling in the ocean
Let the waves up take me down
Let the hurricane set in motion (yeah)
Let the rain of what I feel right now...come down
Let the rain come down
Let the rain come down

Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
(In to space)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
(I thought of just your face)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)

Ballad of Melancholy Molly

When love feels like dying slowly...

A letter unsent

Please don't let my last memory with you be my last memory of you. Illusioned as it may be, I still want to believe that you are wonderful. Why does it take intoxication for you to appreciate me? What is it in the liquor that can break through that heart of steel exterior? In sobriety, at the core, you are still the man I've seen when the drink breaks you down. Don't you know, he's beautiful? I'll bear my heart, I'll bear my soul, time and time again, in hopes that one day, you can be transparent with me, for real. I don't ever want you to feel alone. I'll be standing here, waiting on you... to let me in... on your terms.

Will you please let me in...?

It's just one of those days

It's been a day or two since the last time I talked you.
Today's been that kind of day, If you catch what I'm tryin' to say.
I need to lose myself tonight.

I don't want to be a lady, I just want you to have your way with me
Don't over think it, it's just an hour or three or more...
So what is it that you're waiting for?

And I don't care about the past, so we can just leave it there?
'Cause no one makes me feel the way you do, I need you to touch me... Anywhere.
Could you lose yourself tonight?

You can put your reservations in a box, Baby, I'm not in the mood to talk.
Don't over think it, it's just an hour or three or more...
So, why don't you meet me at the door?

I'm not really looking for a promise, I don't really care where this goes.
Let's just let it go...
Let's lose ourselves tonight.

I just damn love this song

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your lips

It's late again...
Hey, how ya been?
Whatcha up to...? I kinda want to see you

Its that time of night and this bed is cold

My body quakes, I shouldnt be alone

and its you...

You are the first one on my mind
There is no time left to waste
Because it's your lips I want to kiss
It's your skin I want to taste.

So rescue me from my demons

wont you help me to subdue the madness

When its you

You are the first one on my mind
There is no time left to waste
And it's your lips I want to kiss
It's your skin I want to taste

With a million roads to utter rapture 

None as favorably traveled as the ecstacy found in you.

Its late again...
Hey, how ya been?
I'm lonely tonight, and you're nowhere in sight.

I want to wake up where you are

Quite simply: you my dear, are beautiful.
I could listen to you for eternity and never hear enough.
Fittingly, i kind of like that "I can taste you on my lips and smell you in my clothes."
I wish i knew how to tell you i just want to be with you.

I have a propensity for playing with fire. There are scars on my heart from past fires fought. But you, you are the gasoline that fuels the flame. Danger and beauty wrapped up in a resealable package, designed for reuse. And here I am, a pyromaniac. Its not easy for the addict to ignore the stash in the closet when he's feeling hard up. A manic obsessive complusion to see the tongues lick higher despite the impending wreckage. Self destruction at it's best and this girl knows how to play dirty. So I'll stack the timber, you can lay it on thick, I've pocketed the matches so let's see what measure of devestation we can inspire.

To the mothers

I want to take a minute, momma
not to tell you what I want, but to let you know I love you.
Life can get so busy
But I want you to know, thanks for all you do.

What I remember by pictures, you remember by heart.
You loved us the most, right from the start
From stinky diapers and brushing hair, to dirty fights and broken pairs
one thing remains, you're always there.

I want to take a minute, momma
not to tell you what I want, but to let you know I love you.
Life can get so busy
But I want you to know, thanks for all you do.


We're growing up fast and we cant slow it down.
you've done a good job, giving us ground.
To learn, to grow, to climb, to fall.
You've been there to guide us through it all.

I want to take a minute, momma
not to tell you what I want, but to let you know I love you.
Life can get so busy
But I want you to know, thanks for all you do.


One day, we'll find love and you'll give us away
Someday you'll have grandchildren and your hair will turn gray
Somtime after that, it will be our turn to take care of you
To remind you that you are beautiful, and of other things that are true.


I want to take a minute, momma
not to tell you what I want, but to let you know I love you.
Life can get so busy
But I want you to know, thanks for all you do.

Pour my bleeding heart out

I wish that we could start out fresh. We'll pretend we're perfect strangers, "Hello, Sir." and "What's up, Miss." You'll be skeptical and charming and I'll be cynical and sweet. We can set up camp in coffee shops and sketch out the pictures in our imaginations, hopped up on endorphins and caffeine. A comic book creation swimming in the story of you and me.

But as it stands, there is a chasm of circumstance and catastrophe between your heart and mine.
And they say that time heals all, but the saline from these tears stings. I miss you.

I believe this story can change. It can be colored with kisses under tall trees on mountain sides. Embellishing the pages with stories of pirates, gypsies and Martians encountered at the secondhand bookstore. Illustrated by the photos of memories built for two. Chapters woven together in nights of conquered levels and crocheted projects.

And yet calculated words keep us at arms length. What a shame. Do you ever wonder what might have been? I wish an apology meant something to you. Still, I'd rather try.

So, close your eyes and I'll paint the next scene, one new and fresh and squeeky clean. Lets fall blissfully in friendship: free of limits, clear of boundaries. And then we'll see where we can go from there. Are you game for a new adventure?

Overzealous emotional outrage

I fell again the other day... its not the first time, I doubt quite muchly that it should be the last.
My raging heart it pounds and thuds faster and harder than one safely should, I'm sure.
Emotions swell bigger than my silly girl soul seems be capble of containing.
And when this vessle over flows, the floodgates are obliterated...
I love too big, I love too hard
Far too oft without a life preserver to cling to.
In these occasions of rampant feeling, solace seems scarce.
But more than the achiness of heartbreak, I fear a time where scar tissue hardens me and I'm too guarded to open my heart when it ought be set free once more.