This is me: Raw, unedited, and on fire

Raw, unedited, and on fire

Monday, December 24, 2012

I thought of just your face

"Into The Ocean"

I'm just a normal boy
That sank when I fell overboard
My ship would leave the country
But I'd rather swim ashore

Without a life vest I'd be stuck again
Wish I was much more masculine
Maybe then I could learn to swim
Like 'fourteen miles away'

Now floating up and down
I spin, colliding into sound
Like whales beneath me diving down
I'm sinking to the bottom of my
Everything that freaks me out
The lighthouse beam has just run out
I'm cold as cold as cold can be
be

I want to swim away but don't know how
Sometimes it feels just like I'm falling in the ocean
Let the waves up take me down
Let the hurricane set in motion... yeah
Let the rain of what I feel right now...come down
Let the rain come down

Where is the coastguard
I keep looking each direction
For a spotlight, give me something
I need something for protection
Maybe flotsam junk will do just fine
the jetsam sunk, I'm left behind
I'm treading for my life believe me
(How can I keep up this breathing)

Not knowing how to think
I scream aloud, begin to sink
My legs and arms are broken down
With envy for the solid ground
I'm reaching for the life within me
How can one man stop his ending
I thought of just your face
Relaxed, and floated into space

I want to swim away but don't know how
Sometimes it feels just like I'm falling in the ocean
Let the waves up take me down
Let the hurricane set in motion... yeah
Let the rain of what I feel right now...come down
Let the rain come down
Let the rain come down

Now waking to the sun
I calculate what I had done
Like jumping from the bow (yeah)
Just to prove that I knew how (yeah)
It's midnight's late reminder of
The loss of her, the one I love
My will to quickly end it all
Set front row in my need to fall

Into the ocean, end it all
Into the ocean, end it all
Into the ocean, end it all
into the ocean...end it all

[Zayra]
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)

I want to swim away but don't know how
Sometimes it feels just like I'm falling in the ocean
Let the waves up take me down
Let the hurricane set in motion (yeah)
Let the rain of what I feel right now...come down
Let the rain come down
Let the rain come down

Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
(In to space)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
(I thought of just your face)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)

Monday, December 10, 2012

A letter unsent

Please don't let my last memory with you be my last memory of you. Illusioned as it may be, I still want to believe that you are wonderful. Why does it take intoxication for you to appreciate me? What is it in the liquor that can break through that heart of steel exterior? In sobriety, at the core, you are still the man I've seen when the drink breaks you down. Don't you know, he's beautiful? I'll bear my heart, I'll bear my soul, time and time again, in hopes that one day, you can be transparent with me, for real. I don't ever want you to feel alone. I'll be standing here, waiting on you... to let me in... on your terms.

Will you please let me in...?

Wednesday, December 5, 2012

It's just one of those days

It's been a day or two since the last time I talked you.
Today's been that kind of day, If you catch what I'm tryin' to say.
I need to lose myself tonight.

I don't want to be a lady, I just want you to have your way with me
Don't over think it, it's just an hour or three or more...
So what is it that you're waiting for?

And I don't care about the past, so we can just leave it there?
'Cause no one makes me feel the way you do, I need you to touch me... Anywhere.
Could you lose yourself tonight?

You can put your reservations in a box, Baby, I'm not in the mood to talk.
Don't over think it, it's just an hour or three or more...
So, why don't you meet me at the door?

I'm not really looking for a promise, I don't really care where this goes.
Let's just let it go...
Let's lose ourselves tonight.